Lordy and I am not even forty!
Peri what?
I turn 39 this month. I know that this is not a milestone birthday however given the recent changes to my body, I feel like a conversation needs to be had.
So I am writing this letter to my body.
Dear Body,
I have noticed that you are not your same old self. You have new demands. I get it, the same things that excited you before have diminished. I must admit at this point I don't know what you want from me but I am curious.
I am open to exploring this new adventure with you. No longer the young perky brunette and now departing from the busy years of diapers to suddenly watching my kids on the cusp of their own pre teen stage, I get that I have got to make some adjustments.
However I have some questions….. I am sure you wont be offended, after all we are in this together right?
You do know that we aren't 40 yet right? These changes feel a bit premature…
Why is my period still like I am bleeding out or losing an internal organ every month?
Did we need to get rid of my estrogen now? Really? Couldn't we have waited till like 41 or 42 , you didn't even let me hit 40 without starting to kick this essential hormone to the curb.
Where is my sex drive? I would like that back please. (How could you!)
We could have at least talked about all these changes, you know I am a heavy processor. I feel like you just sprung this on me. I feel attacked!!
I needed some form of warning and also an actual name for this stage because I am too young for anything Menopausal (peri or otherwise!).
Is this a mid life crisis? It feels like that's what this is…
Can I stop growing hair in weird places? I am certain this is possible because you have stopped the hair growth from my scalp. Again this deserves a conversation.
I don't know about you, but I feel better just getting it all out there. Phew! I mean I could go on about the random outburst, fits of rage and new levels of anxiety but I think we have covered enough for today.
I love you body, your the only one I got we are going to get through this together but please for the love of God, do not even think about the night sweats yet. This is all new for me, and a little scary.
Here’s to 39, YOLO. xx
