I often thought that death would be easier too, the finality of it, there is no one to blame but life at that point , no fingers wagging. I think it is our attachment to this concept of forever that causes us the greatest suffering. Life is inpermanent and so it goes against the natural laws of this world to think that anything else would be, I've been thinking about that alot lately. Trying not to cling to relationships and be present in the moment of them. Nothing is forever, and you never know the value of a moment until its a memory.